What is up to me is the following:
- Choosing to withdraw my loyalty towards my own (= ego-based, = fear-based) thinking
- Deliberately turning my thoughts to service and God
- Deliberately turning my actions to service and God.
God won't do any of these for me but will give me the strength if these are the choices I make.
If, by contrast, I choose to believe my own (= ego-based, = fear-based) thinking, dwell on it, and then act on the basis of it, God will not stand in my way.